The accuracy of the memories is irrelevant.
In fact, the original experience that was lived through with such identification and assigned so much reality that it caused you to develop a rigid and persistent core belief about yourself and the world is actually irrelevant too.
All that matters is the actual nature of the inner convictions and self-beliefs you currently hold about yourself in the present. Not where they came from. They become the negative mantras that shape what you assumptions about people and the world will be and so the behavioural strategies you employ.
My experience of being rejected for who I am caused my to put on as functional and pleasant a front that I can muster around people. Keeping things superficial and light, and only asking and sharing about things at hand, I come across as friendly but can not really connect because I can’t share my heart.
My core belief is that love has passed me by. Love has found me unworthy and rejected me – that all there is for me is a loveless existence that can only be hated and rejected for its cruelty and meaninglessness.
Holding these beliefs in awareness, relinquish ownership, let them desync out of phase with your loving present presence, and simply drift, unclaimed out of your being.
I think I do, but I don’t know shit about reality.
I need to get off my high horse, and walk in the helpless innocence of absolute unknowing.
I need to let go of everything I think is true, my every conviction about how life is, and surrender to no control.
Just open. Just here.
i am one with the infinite mind of God
and the abundance of the Universe flows to me freely.
I release any thoughts of lack or limitation
and affirm that I am whole perfect and complete.
I am a unique expression of the infinite
and I know everything I need for my victory is already within me.