Poem

These are poems I have written over the years. They represent hard won insights from psychotherapy, spiritual practice, and medicine journeys.

  • Me and You

    Me and You

    You fill me today. I see you and feel you everywhere and in all my being. I feel love and sadness and regret. Around this deep unmoving place – like petals – a fierce love for all this pain. And compassion like urgent morning light. I understand it is a journey away from you and…

  • Nothing Belongs to me

    Nothing Belongs to me

    Nothing belongs to me,Self-manifesting phenomena,arise and fade of their own accord.Claimed: they linger unnaturally –spoiling or shriveling like dried flowers. Nothing belongs to me,I have never had a birth or death,I have never had a friend or ever been aloneI have never even taken a single breath,I have never been a disciple,I have never had…

  • Spiritual Bypass

    Spiritual Bypass

    For the longest time,I survived,by tethering my desire to live,to one fantasy of love fulfilled,that was the ever-frozen dawnon the dark horizon of my life. It gave me strength but kept me weak.To love an image in time more,than you love yourself now,is a dangerous predicament. That tether that was my life-line,was an anchor into…

  • Loveless Brat

    Loveless Brat

    I didn’t love you. You had not fulfilled all the required conditions of my conditional love for you.  I may learn to forgive you and my anger may subside.  However, every time I’m reminded of how you’ve failed to meet my expectations – whether I’ve communicated them or not – my rage swells up, throwing…

  • A Conversation of None

    A Conversation of None

    It’s subtle,but our hearts,they talk to each other,on a level deeper than time, space, or life. Sometimes it’s all I hear. Sometimes I forget it’s here.When I’m in that space with you,a communion of hearts,all the small things: the details of this life, are tiny blinks in time,but I remember the slow and constant things,I…

  • Grateful Prey

    Grateful Prey

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    I was hunting for her,little did I know,I was the prey.Now I am caught,in my beloved’s jaws.Crunch away my darling,Swallow me up,till I whisper no more,Gone!dissolved into the belly of silence.

  • Peace is real

    Peace is real

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    Who is looking,through every eye?Who is alivethrough every lifetime? This life is peace,a living equilibrium between duality:an armistice betweenmutually excluding possibilities. The mind is the battlefield of potential,and thoughts: the soldiers of this war.Do not take sides, do not think.The engine of conscious experiencing,enslaves conscripts that do and believe.Just be, and you will find that…

  • Who sings this Love Song?

    Who sings this Love Song?

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    This voice in the silence,will never cease to sing,for love is the songof perfect emptiness. the eternal continuum of this song,is there ever-changing face of the present,for it is itself the outflowof perfect stillness I am the essence of reality,before all things,before the language of duality,I sing the song of love, I am the deepest…

  • Small-Talk

    Small-Talk

    what is this substance that causes sufferingin the many stratified states of gross, ordinary, and subtle consciousness, what is it that gives experience its original pain? that which has debased the sacred mystery and eternal flow of lifeinto a tedious procession of repeating objects and known experiences,become a subject of cyclical behaviors and chain reactionssuffocating…

  • Purple-Eyed Devi

    Purple-Eyed Devi

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    You won’t remember this,when your soul has fully descendedout of inner-space beyond time and space,an into this form of yours,located at this specific point in time,and this specific point in space. You came to me before your birth,as a purple-eyed goddess:a divine being of purity and beauty,and asked me to be born on earth,and so…

  • Beyond Voice & Audience

    Beyond Voice & Audience

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    Nothing destroys a psyche like the absence of an audience.A psyche will even reshape itself to receive feedback from an audience otherwise blind to it. It is the parent’s listening or deafness that cultivates and conditions the self-identity and inner voice of the child. In the referenceless void of total isolation, no relative identity can…

  • Lotus Shield

    Lotus Shield

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    My inner childrenare the sacred guardiansof epigenetic keysand only through conscious contactwith the mature love and present awarenessof the current adult person,can they be transformedfrom wrathful deities of self-destruction,into divine portals of realized life. And in my deep-dive,holding onto the weight of my friend’s hand,as a safety line,I dove once more into my depths,and found…

  • Ignorance like a Cloud

    Ignorance like a Cloud

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    The ignorance of I,casts a shadow upon the world:a shadow that colours and distortswith purpose, meaning, and value,a world that just is. I am responsible:for the darkness of that shadow,for stepping into identityas the experiencer of experience,that locks the mind into the causalityof cognition, desire, fear, and resistance,though experience just is,and happens to no one.…

  • The Fertile Loam of Human Consciousness

    The Fertile Loam of Human Consciousness

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    Eternal love isimpersonal,andlike the ocean that drowns a sunken city,it fills all rooms without being contained by any. The heartbreak of personal love,is the suffering that greases the wheel of time,and that deathless yearning:the momentum of desire that keeps it turning. Love is eternal,like the Light of awareness,while the fluctuating patterns of form,like the shifting…

  • Stripped Naked

    Stripped Naked

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    Stripped naked of my humanity,everything I am, torn apart by sudden kundalini.Left pure and simple:pure consciousness.Just wearing a room,while looking at toes. Stripped naked of my humanity,impersonal pure consciousness,suddenly revealed:my personal self unpeeled,like a bubble expanded and burst. Stripped naked of my humanity,as Kundalini so suddenly rises,unsheathed of the husk of identity:pure consciousness –impersonal and…

  • Dewdrop

    Dewdrop

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    The world is getting thinner,so transparent it’s hard to see.Like the rippling incandescent surface,of an invisible depthless ocean. The unseen immensity of that vastness,floods my senses shut,to the hollow glittering noises,of the diversity of form. It becomes so hard to notice,the weightless detail,that once mapped and ballasted,my being into form. As knowledge settles like sediment,rising…

  • “I struggle, I suffer”

    “I struggle, I suffer”

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    The willing joy of suffering;the confirmation of existence through pain,that declares “I struggle, I suffer, therefore I am.”is the fearful thorny purchase,of a bird who forgets its wings,who would cling onto apparent certainty:the apparent solidity of pain,as the sole coordinates that locates its existencerather than,let go of the past’s reference point,kiss goodbye to all dimensions,without…

  • Great Transmuting Gates of Love

    Great Transmuting Gates of Love

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    On the path to unconditional love: a journey that We/All are on,we must pass through some great and glorious mysteries;Great sacred guarded gates of love. For All must come to love at last,The most very loveless and unlovable,the great acts of sin and hatred,the demons, hells, and cold-fire of the mind. To love murder, to…

  • Shabbat Shalom

    Shabbat Shalom

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    I forgot about living rooms.That safe space:That secure domestic feeling of a welcoming home. I lost it long ago, perhaps, or never had it.I don’t ever remember the feeling of having been safe or welcome;the comfortable tedium of a warm and loving nest. There were rooms, in many houses. But, they were hunting grounds for…

  • What does formlessness look like?

    What does formlessness look like? You won’t find it anywhere in experience. You can only look with heart-eyes within. Retrace your steps, and find that no one and nothing was ever waiting for you. It is only here and it is only now. Smile, loneliness was of the body, it will never visit you again. Countless and incredible are…

  • Sighing Heart

    In intimate lonely moments, my heart gives a little sigh. The intensity of time; its relentless haste, and my heart, anxious to live and not miss, the full potential of a fully lived life, sighs at the potential in the moment that it can feel but not express. Time moves us swiftly on a ballistic…

  • Bear Witness

    Bear witness: I scatter all external coordinates of identity to the wind.I will never be lost again.There is only one universal center,only a single universal heart. I cast away the false sense of apparent unique centerof sight, of sound, of touch, of taste, of smell, of thought. I cast away the false sense of local…

  • Union with the Enemy

    He is a mystery to me; this reptilian anti-buddha. In his eyes, the unknowable motives of an immortal. In his look, a flash of recognition, ignites the black fire of an ancient hatred. His cold scaly hands lunge forward to choke my throat, and in his touch I learn of him; of his unspeakable crimes.…

  • Arhat Soul: Divine Brat

    Resting in inner space, a golden orb of energy, with a point of eternal light at its core: the subtle anatomy of a soul, resting in sublime bliss: neither projecting nor receiving information. In the refuge of this rarefied realm, so subtle, desire can not even target it, so beyond migration and the theater of…

  • Beyond Dreams upon Dreams

    the great dis-aster: unconscious life, these chains of sleeping death, these chains of time, of space, my soul screams out into the eternal silence of psychic space. From the undivided sea, as invisible all permeating light, the great transparency, prism of the world-dream, mother-father of all lights, From this sea of omnidirectional stillness, through the…

  • Evolving Quanta

    Perfect Mirror Perfectly Reflecting Perfect Mirror Perfect Mirror’s Perfect Self-Reflection is the first image in the Mirror. The reflection in the mirror is not real: the image in the mirror is illusion. Only the Empty Mirror is Real. Consciousness Conscious Of Consciousness. ‘Consciousness Of’ is itself Experience. The experiences experienced by Consciousness, are not Consciousness.…

  • Young Whale

    Young Whale

    I follow my mother, moving with the changing currents, and ever-new shades blue, of That – endless space.In her slipstream of grace,we fly weightless in horizonless love.In the cool deep darkness, we go,beyond pitch black, we disappear.Luring the unguided with false lights,the luminous giant squid of mind;its uncurling tentacles changing form,to capture the weak by…

  • Wisdom Heart

    Wisdom Heart

    As Attachment is Ignorance, So Detachment is Pure Ignorance. As Detachment is not Non-Attachment, So Empty-Closedness is not the natural freedom of Open-Emptiness. As Ignorance is the circumference of a Closed-Heart, So Wisdom is the ever-enduring Love of a Wide-Open-Heart! May All Beings Be Happy, May Existence Supply Them With All Their Needs, May All…

  • Warriors of Now

    Warriors of Now

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    I have been a woman, and I have been a man, and I have had husbands, and I have had wives.I see the past in the present,and I honour the present.Living ever passingly upon the abode of stranger’s welcomes,with no safe place or sanctuary,we of our family have no assets but our living bodies and…

  • Vajravārāhī

    Vajravārāhī

    the clouds effervesce with light in rhythm with the words that she spoke without speaking, and all around us a mystic wind of flowing light, and all i could do was keep breathing,Lightning flashed in her eyes as she pierced into my mind as silent as an eagle diving,she took hold of me, my personality…