Looking back now,
I can see the desperation.
The hollowness within,
and the desperate flight not to feel it,
to throw my self completely away,
and beg,
the world and others,
to fill with God-that-can-be experienced
the void of God-that-can-not-be-known within me.
Ignorant that I was ever filled and ever one:
too numb to know my presence is God’s presence,
all I saw was myself alone in this world and in this life.
Loneliness is the construct seeking for others to fill the hollow.
Oneness with your own self – is oneness with all.
The hollow itself causes no pain.
Your own unacknowledged presence is in the hollow.
God – the subtle essence – hard to notice –
is waiting for you: the external construct,
to fold your limbs into inactivity,
and fold your mind away from relative and worldly things,
and rest in yourself, as your self:
simple, eternal, awareness.
So why do you run from this?
Why do you turn away?
Others and world are only the periphery,
and can not fill your depths.
Experiencing experiences is irrelevant
to the depths of peace that you are and
that life experiences were never meant to fill.
Be at peace within being alone,
go into that hollow place
and filling it with your self-awareness,
find completion,
for you your self are the last piece of your own puzzle,
that no thing and no one else could fill.
Wake to the perfection that is,
that need only be recognized,
acknowledged, honoured,
realized.
At one with your self: all one with yourself:
whole.